Okay so I hate to be the one who’s like RANT ABOUT MY LIFE on tumblr because my life actually doesn’t suck… I’m really grateful… But no one else will listen to me because the computer is my only friend and I guess that’s where it starts.

I’ve noticed recently that people who I’m like kinda-sorta friends with but aren’t really in my group like me more than people I’m really close with. It’s like when they get to know me they think “oh wow you’re way lamer than I thought you were” and I’m like wow I didn’t know my personality was THAT repulsive but I know now.

Also the people I seem to get along with the most are the ones I’ve met through Twitter or Facebook aka the ones I haven’t met in person. At first it was just a thing but now I’m like, is it really where I live or is it because they haven’t met ME.

And like I realize my brother is like the coolest person ever but ALL OF MY FRIENDS LIKE HIM MORE THAN ME

My self-esteem which has never been that good in the first place is just plummeting